WEST PALM BEACH, Fla. (AP) — A woman accused of killing her ex-partner's two-year-old daughter left a bizarre note invoking a pastor's sermon and blaming the woman who broke off a two-decade relationship.
Kimberly Lucas, 40, of Jupiter, was considered a second mother to the girl and a 10-year-old boy. Police say she planned to kill both children and then herself on Monday.
Lucas penned a note on her computer apparently explaining the killing of the girl, who was found dead in a bathtub, and the alleged drugging of the boy, who survived. In it, she cites a sermon delivered a day earlier at Metropolitan Community Church of the Palm Beaches, which focused on the story in Genesis 22, in which Abraham prepares to kill his son Isaac under orders from God, only to be told at the last minute to stop.
"God never told me to stop!" Lucas wrote, according to an investigative report filed in court.
The note is incoherent at times, but makes clear Lucas was still reeling from her breakup.
"When you are laying in bed at night," it says, "remember you ... did this too yourself!"
Lucas is charged with first-degree murder and attempted first-degree murder and was ordered held without bail Wednesday. Her attorney, Marc Shiner, said his client is "totally lost in shock" and that the rest of the family is searching for answers. "They're at a complete loss to try and figure out what happened. They're all in a state of shock and mourning," he said.
The boy, who was not named by authorities, told police Lucas gave him a pill "to help him grow faster." When his sister wouldn't take the pill, the boy told police Lucas said she'd give her a bath instead.
Court documents say the boy tested positive for a benzodiazepine, which is a type of drug that includes Xanax and Valium and is widely prescribed for anxiety, sleeplessness and other problems.
The boy said he felt tired and dizzy after taking it and fell asleep. When he awoke, according to police, Lucas was sleeping beside him. He found the bathroom door locked and used a knife to open it, discovering his sister submerged in the bathtub. He pulled her out and attempted CPR before calling 911, police said. Formal autopsy results on the girl haven't been released.
In the sermon that police said Lucas cited in her note, Pastor Lea Brown asked congregants to ponder the horrific order Abraham was given.
"How far do we trust God?" Brown said, according to a video the church posted of her sermon. "How far are we willing to go in our love and our relationship and our expression of need with God."
Lucas mentioned the pastor by name and said the sermon "really, really touched me," according the note contained in court documents.
"The message that rings from the pulpit of this church every Sunday is the message of love and forgiveness and grace," said Brian Ladd, who is on the church's board of directors and who saw Lucas attend services on Sunday but did not speak with her. "What happened on Monday has nothing to do with love and forgiveness."
Shiner said Lucas suffered a traumatic head injury last year, had been heavily medicated and was unable to work. He said she worked in the mental health field, though no licensing for her with the State of Florida was found. Lucas and her former partner had been together about 21 years and had celebrated a civil commitment ceremony, but split up in the past year, according to Shiner.
Follow Matt Sedensky on Twitter at http://twitter.com/sedensky